I want to thank those of you who have encouraged me to keep expanding my ability to love myself and others, to widen my circle of acceptance.
Last evening, my best friend in Albuquerque and I amiably ended our friendship. He indicated that the relationship was not compatible with those in his life and that it would not be in keeping true to himself.
I felt good to be able to stand honestly by my commitment to the friendship, offering to leave the doors open, but, at the same time, not needing the friendship. Able to go forward with or without, and, even without, being able to honestly welcome him should he ever feel otherwise.
As one of you said, mixing Hesse with the words of the song Desperado, "being loved isn't important, but letting someone love you is." I continue to learn that. This chapter allowed me to live it, being okay with his rejection of the friendship (being loved isn't important) while also remaining open to it if it were there (letting someone love me).
Thanks for being friends who encourage me to grow and expand my circle of friends, rather than restricting them. Even when you may have doubts as to their benefit to me (and many of you expressed your doubts), you have encouraged me to still face the best and the worst and to proceed to a new level of understanding and grace. That makes me stronger and able to embrace others.
Thanks for encouraging me to not back away.