I celebrated the end of my fast with a mystery shop at a casino. Because I was ending 10 days of no food, I was able to eat very little when evaluating the food areas of the casino. This was difficult because the buffet was an extravaganza of Asian seafood, one of my favorites! I did sample some crab legs and shrimp and it was delicious! I'd like to go back sometime.
The end of my fast was uneventful. It had turned into a mere physical experience with no deep reflection. I realize that I need a quieter work schedule for that to be possible. Self-awareness actually seemed to come as I ended the fast. I am more aware that I use food to stifle emotions, to put an endpoint on a day, to occupy time, etc. I am equally more aware that I can live off much less food, so long as I get proper liquid into my body. Have you ever heard of "breatharians"? I don't think I'll try that.
Some of my reflection also centered on sustainable income. Currently, all of my varied part-time positions do not add up to enough monthly income. The stress is palpable and I'm tired of feeling so scattered. I'm thinking about two possible ways to build my hypnotherapy practice, which is in dire need of continued networking and advertising.
One solution is to take a year off and teach English as a second language overseas. This has the advantage of a concentrated decrease in bills (rent, car, etc.) while simultaneously bringing in substantial income. The disadvantage is a year's sabbatical from the business and practice.
The second is to take a full-time job here in ABQ, seeing occasional clients after hours. This has the advantage of continuing to practice my work and to meet potential clients. The disadvantage is that it could be a much longer and slower distraction from being able to re-enter the hypnotherapy field with designated financing.
In considering the latter, I may apply as a driver for the Sunport International Airport transportation service. That would involve mindless driving people to and from their cars. It would not be a mental distraction from hypnotherapy and has the added benefit of potential tips.
A second option in staying here is to get work with a motivational speaker group. That could actually complement my hypnotherapy work, although it would possible involve a lot of travel away from ABQ. It could pay much more.
That's about it for now. I did get a haircut.